Risk Take Into Love

Life is about taking risk right ? But probably not the risk I took lol let's begin shall we .. The year of 2015 this girl right here ( Noel ) messaged me on snapchat telling me that I was beautiful but, I didn't feel that way at the moment I was going through a tough break up ad felt so low and weak ! so I opened her snap and just didn't respond.. I know sounds horrible of me right ? After that I proceed to get involve with someone else who wasn't' her because I knew that I wasn't ready to put her heart through that pain. Until the things with the next girl I got involved with went completely left and I couldn't handle it as I was rebuilding my self love , and confidence back up we weren't what we thought we were going to be so we needed that. I took time to myself before I allowed anyone else into my space because I felt like no one deserved me at that point I was so ready to give up on the low life. I say about mid-end of march we started talking because I messaged her on snap like with the little crying eyes ! she sent me back the looking eyes. I told her “ I must meet you “ she said the same thing back to me I then ask her does she have a girlfriend she says no ! here go me ( I have to kidnap you and make you mine ) she says “ do you have a girlfriend it’s suspect to me that you’re single ! but I’m here for you to take me lol I say “ I’m single love & oh you’re mine now “ she then says “ she’s cool with that “ So I slid my number to her and then we started texting everyday and she was the one who made me want an Iphone so we could facetime all the time ! I can’t find the specific date when I got on the greyhound to go to North Carolina but I had my friend drop me off at the greyhound she cried, I cried and then we hugged and then I got on the bus and then I was on my way ! She literally stayed on the phone with me half way there until I seen my cousin on the bus who was sitting directly next to me ! She end up asking me where was I going I told her to meet my girlfriend she lives in North Carolina sge told me she lived out that way so she would take me the rest of the way. We have arrived In Atlanta,GA by this time so we get in the car with her friend and then she drives us to my cousin car which was like 5 hrs. When we finally made it to her car we drop straight to my girlfriends house ! I was so nervous we was texting but you know hw you can say any and everything through a phone yeah that was me … So we pulled up I called her like I am outside so she comes out in a white t –shirt and some sweats and slides and she stands literally like 10 feet from the car and stands there for like 10 mins and I’m like are you going to help me with my bags … She’s Like oh yeah and then proceeds to help me. My cousin of course checking her out as usual family do then she gives me a hug and then say she will see me later. As we are walking up to her apartment we talking a little bit laughing because we’re both really nervous. We’ve made it inside her apartment we take my things up stairs and we just laid down and talked because it was night time when I arrived. I haven’t told you guys that my mom didn’t know where I was for like ¾ months I always told her I was at a friend house in Oklahoma where I originally lived. My girlfriend didn’t know how old I was I asked her how old she was but she didn’t ask me and I didn’t tell her I am horrible lol. I was 17 when I met her but that year I was turning 18 she was 20! Guys anything could’ve happen to me on that bus I pray to God everyday for letting me make it from that day forward because I don’t know what kind of mind state I was in to be doing any of those things at 17 ! But, my mom knows where I am now and my girlfriend knows my age and if you guys wondered she is 23 now and I am about to turn 21 ! We've currently been together for 3 years going on 4 :)